and that's what happened

I have neglected my blog lately. Not because I've been too busy, but because I've been lazy. Laziness never pays, as now, I have too many things that have happened to really talk about them all. So I'll give you a quick synopsis of the last couple of weeks....glee style. (that means you're supposed to read this quickly)
I was driving to go take pictures for work when I hit a deer with my car, and totaled it. I drove a purple minivan for the weekend and then I gave it back because I thought my insurance company was going to come. They waited five days and then told me I wasn't getting squat for my car, so then my dad and brother drove down (or up) last weekend to bring my little sister's car for me to drive for now. We went out to dinner and dad ate his first Gunder burger. (It's a whole pound of hamburger, but he acted like it was nothing.) Then this weekend I tried to find a new car but they're all way too expensive. I went to living stone and had a really great chat with my pebble (Angela Williams). Sunday I watched one of  the high school's my papers cover perform The Wizard of Oz. It was really good and made me kind of sad that my high school only performed really dumb no-name plays. I once played a part called Echo Chambers where I had to echo the last word of every sentence. It was horrible. Anyway, we had a really great prayer service Sunday night and I got to spend some much-needed time in worship to an awesome Creator. Then I came home and a lovely little chat with a friend where I ended up feeling like I should probably just give up on certain endeavors, well one really, just one. And that's what you missed on me.
Now, for tonight's episode.(you can stop reading fast now)
I have too many things going on in my head to focus on one thing. For starters, I cannot believe next week is Thanksgiving. Where have my last few months gone? I'm really excited to go home, and even more excited to spend time with my family. I haven't seen my grandpa Duren since my grandma's funeral this summer. Her birthday is tomorrow. I've never really had anyone close to me die before. And although my grandma Rosa lived three hours away, and suffered from severe dementia the last ten or so years, it's still a tough thing. I am extra thankful this year for the loved ones I do have, this will be the first holiday we celebrate without granny.
Also this week I've been a little more emotional than usual. Moody too. I got my hair cut today, nothing extreme, but just enough for a much-needed confidence boost. (or at least the delusion of one)
As I watch the t.v. and almost every commercial points toward Christmas, I am once again reminded that money rules the season. I can't help but get a little bitter as I try to think of clever present ideas that won't break the bank. It's not easy going it alone.  A lesson I'm learning over and over again, in way more ways than one.